My First Steps Back to Life After Endometriosis Surgery

Not Hard, Not Easy

A Little Story About Me

I, Me & Myself

When I started writing my blog, my articles used to get just around 10 views or so and initially I used to feel disappointed that I was going nowhere with this, but after a few days, I thought that I would keep going, and the worst that might happen is 0 views, but I will atleast have an outlet for my feelings and emotions. Today, all of my articles get 100 to 200 views, but that took me 6 years of being consistent with my efforts. I used to think who would read about endometriosis or whatever shit I was writing, but I was wrong - many, in fact, read and started texting me about what happened to me, and was it that bad as I was claiming to be, and there was a lot of negativity around it as well. That didn't stop me from writing my heart out. I actually started writing on everything else going around me rather than my endometriosis, and I felt 0 connection with my content, and as a result, my writing sucked big time. The day I started laying myself bare in front of the world and started writing about endometriosis was the day I felt connected to my content, and my readers felt a connection to me through my writing, only because it seemed unique and raw and natural and organic. Not many women were talking about endometriosis at that time, and even Google knew what endometriosis was, but now Google has changed its definition on endometriosis, and there's a hell of a lot of content on social media surrounding endometriosis, but the average indian still had no idea what endometriosis was. When I started talking about it openly, my parents didn't want me to talk about it and give out all the personal details about it, but I thought that advocacy about endometriosis needs to start somewhere so that there should be no one in my shoes feeling lost, scared and helpless because I felt all of these and had 0 help. Now i have a lot of resources and unconditional help from my parents and friends, and a really understanding doctor who is willing to see past my age and my marital status, which I wish I had 6 years back, and i wish i could go back to the Nikita that was pain-free and care-free, but unfortunately i cant and my new normal is this. Not saying that it isn't good because I definitely am a better me than I think I could have been without endometriosis. After all, although endometriosis snatched away my life and dreams, it gave me a lot that I didn't even ask for, especially parents who get me and it doesn't hurt me to stay with them.

I would definitely want to thank my readers for all the love they are sending my way and my books that gave me my GOOD ENGLISH FLUENCY and also my parents who constantly pushed me to do things that i otherwise wouldn't have done and yes the main hero of my story is my ENDOMETRIOSIS that came without my permission and that doesn't go away but it chose to stay and transform me and the person that i was before this. I do hope I keep inspiring my readers to enjoy a life that's pain-free and to do something out of the box for ages to come, and I would request all you lovely guys to keep supporting me.

I am kind of thinking of becoming a digital creator, mostly with my topic being endometriosis, because that's all I know, and that's me now. I don't know a thing about how social media works, just nada, but that's the thing with me always. I knew nothing when I started this blog or when I got endometriosis, in fact, not even what endometriosis was 6 years back, but I just pushed myself one day at a time, and I taught myself and my parents just from the limited resources available. I mean, I did live with 24*7 constant pain just like you out there, survived 3 surgeries and infinite experimentation on my body in the name of treatment, so my take on this is it can't be any harder than what I already went through, and I am going through. In fact, talking or writing about endometriosis seemed like a task with people thinking I am faking it, which I wasn't, and I didn't have proof, and now everyone close to me knows what it is and how hard it is. I really don't know if this creator thing will work out, but I guess I am ready to put myself out there as I am without any filters and see if there's anyone ready to listen to my story the way it is. If you think you are, please follow me on instagram and help me spread my story in its truest and purest form.

NOW GO AND READ THIS BLOG FOR ME!!!

Well, that's just me in one of my favourite outfits, enjoying life along with pain

Endometriosis Surgery

Endometriosis is more than just a bad period

Endometriosis surgery is a major turning point for many women, including myself. After months, sometimes years, of pain and uncertainty, the day finally comes when you undergo surgery to remove endometrial tissue, relieve nerve pain, or address related conditions like adenomyosis. The recovery journey that follows is just as important as the surgery itself. I want to share my experience taking those first steps back to life after surgery, hoping it offers insight and encouragement to others facing similar challenges during endometriosis awareness month.

I am not writing this for any sympathy but to show the raw and vulnerable parts of me that i haven't been able to all these years so that everyone reading this knows that endometriosis is not in my head and it's not just a bad period but it's a whole body disease that doesn't seem to end even after an endless amount of surgeries. I don't have a concrete answer to whether it's gone or how I am feeling or whether I can live a normal life or start looking for potential matches and right away start having kids, but yes, I am definitely not getting married tomorrow and planning my pregnancy. Society Aunties, sorry to disappoint you.

A peaceful bedroom setting for post-surgery rest

Preparing for Recovery: What I Wish I Knew

Ask for help if you need it...doesn't make you small

Before surgery, I focused mostly on the procedure itself. What I didn’t fully grasp was how much the recovery phase would shape my healing. Surgery for endometriosis often involves delicate nerve release and removal of affected tissue, which means the body needs time to adjust and repair.

Here are some things I learned about preparing for recovery:

• Create a comfortable space: I set up a recovery area with pillows, blankets, and easy access to water and snacks. This made resting easier and reduced the temptation to move too much too soon.

• Plan for help: I arranged for family and friends to assist with daily tasks. Even simple things like getting dressed up or walking to the bathroom can be difficult after surgery.

• Understand your limits: I reminded myself that healing is not linear. Some days felt better, others worse. Patience was key.

  
  

The First Few Days: Managing Pain and Emotions

Recovery that feels more painful than the disease itself

The initial days after surgery were the toughest. The pain from the procedure, combined with the lingering discomfort from endometriosis and adenomyosis, was intense. My surgeon performed a nerve release to reduce chronic pain, but the body still needed time to calm down.

No one really talks about what happens after surgery. The weakness, the dizziness, the bowel pain, the strange pulling sensations inside your body. This phase is quiet, slow, and honestly… confusing. You’re told you’re “better” —but your body still feels like it’s learning how to function again.

Here’s what helped me during this phase:

• Pain management: I followed my doctor’s advice carefully, using prescribed medications and natural methods like heat pads. I avoided pushing through pain, knowing it could delay healing.

• Mindfulness and breathing: Deep breathing exercises helped me manage anxiety and focus on the present moment rather than the pain.

• Journaling: Writing down my feelings and progress gave me a sense of control and helped track improvements.

  
  

Returning to Daily Life: Small Steps Matter

One day at a time

By the end of the first month, I noticed subtle improvements. The nerve release surgery had started to ease some of the sharp pains, and I felt more hopeful. However, I knew I couldn’t rush back to my usual routine.

This is perfect because I literally had my first outing after 1.5 months. I felt weak physically but hopeful emotionally. I was navigating pain, healing, identity, and dreams all at once.

And I’ve realised something —no one can write this the way I can right now.

I stepped outside, and it wasn’t easy physically. There was weakness, dizziness, and a pulling sensation in my lower abdomen. A strange pressure that reminded me I’m still healing, but emotionally? I felt good.

For the first time in a long time, I wasn’t just managing pain —I was living a moment.

I walked into a store, tried on dresses, and bought a long, flowy, denim blue dress for my birthday.

It felt like more than just shopping. It felt like a small piece of life returning.

Here’s how I approached getting back to daily life:

• Gentle movement: Short walks around the house helped prevent stiffness and improved circulation without overexerting myself.

• Balanced nutrition: Eating anti-inflammatory foods supported my body’s healing process. I focused on leafy greens, omega-3-rich fish, and plenty of water.

• Listening to my body: I paid close attention to signs of fatigue or pain and adjusted my activity accordingly.

  
  

A nutritious meal supporting recovery after endometriosis surgery

Coping with Emotional Ups and Downs

The ever-changing graph of navigating life with endometriosis

6 years of living with Endometriosis. 6 years of pain that slowly became a part of everyday life. Surgeries, exhaustion, confusion, and so many missed moments - missed plans, missed milestones, missed versions of myself. Somewhere along the way, survival became routine.

Endometriosis and adenomyosis don’t just affect the body; they take a toll on mental health, too. After surgery, I experienced a mix of relief, frustration, and hope. It’s normal to feel overwhelmed during recovery.

Here are some strategies that helped me cope emotionally:

• Connecting with support groups: Talking with others who understand endometriosis made me feel less alone.

• Setting realistic goals: I celebrated small victories, like walking a little farther or sleeping better.

• Seeking professional help: I didn’t hesitate to reach out to a counsellor when feelings of anxiety or sadness became hard to manage.

  
  

Looking Ahead: Embracing a New Normal

Stop looking for the old me and start embracing the new me

Now, several weeks after surgery, I’m slowly reclaiming my life. The pain has decreased significantly, and I’m more aware of my body’s needs. Surgery was not a cure-all, but it gave me a fresh start.

Healing is not as straightforward as I thought it would be. After years of pain, I’ve become so used to it that I don’t even remember what a completely normal, pain-free life feels like anymore. And that’s a strange place to be in, to be healing…but still carrying the memory of pain in your body.

For anyone facing endometriosis surgery, here are some final thoughts:

• Recovery is a journey unique to each person. Be patient and kind to yourself.

• Stay informed about your condition and treatment options, including nerve release and management of adenomyosis.

• Use endometriosis awareness as a reminder to advocate for your health and connect with others.

Somewhere between all of this, I can feel my dreams slowly coming back.

A stable, well-paying job — in an office, not just at home. A life where I can go out without overthinking. Love, marriage, maybe kids. Travelling without preparation and fear. Cafes, city exploring, painting, blogging. Tattoos that tell my story. A space I can call my own. A life that feels like mine again.

I’m not fully healed yet. Not even close. But I stepped outside.

And that counts. 🌿✨

P.S - Forgive me for any spelling mistakes or grammatical errors I might have made unknowingly because my hands were shaking a lot because of extreme weakness.